Idk

I want somebody that can accompany me when I need a person.
I want somebody that can be by my side when I need him.
I want somebody that I can say "I miss you" to without feeling any uncomfy
I want somebody that I can say whatever to, request whatever to without hesitation.

I don't want to have to think and think before asking for something
I don't wanna have the feeling of getting afraid of being said no to
I don't wanna think carefully before I speak
I don't wanna choose what to say
I don't want all these

I just want somebody that wants me equally much as I want him.
Is that hard?
I just want somebody that truly want me, that will think of me, that will wanna spend time with me, without I ask so
Im letting myself too available for you.
Who are you to me anyway?
Who am I to you? A friend. Something more than a friend is still a friend.
You won't care if I'm gone. Oh no. You'll care, but you'll only realise after im gone. Because, you've never thought that I'll really leave. Right?
Impossible I'll leave, because I like you so much right?
Do you know how much im suffering? I cant say so many stuff, I cant ask so many stuff. Im not me anymore. I have to rephrase my sentences, so it wont look like I care so much, I have to delete and retype, so it wont look like im mad.
Then, who am I now?

Am I happy? Yeaaa when im with you. But whenever im not, im sad. And, the moment im not with you, is more than the moment im with you.
So that's it, I guess. Really should put an end to it. Stop hoping.